Good night, brave one.

Good night, brave one.

Hello October, surprise me lovely.

Hello October, surprise me lovely.

"Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako manlilimos ng atensyon at pagmamahal, pero ano ‘to?!"

Gaguhan.

"Lord naman. Sawang sawa na ako umiyak. Tama na please? Ayoko na. Ayoko na talaga."

Hindi porke nagbigay ka, ganun din yung halaga na maibibigay sayo

Hindi porke naging tapat ka, hindi ka na nya maloloko

Hindi porke mahal ka, hindi ka na masasaktan

Hindi porke nagtiwala ka, hindi ka madi-disappoint

Welcome to earth

Kaya mahirap magtiwala eh

Dahil kapag sinabi na hindi ka iiwan, sa oras na may kailangan ka saka naman mawawala.

Dahil kapag sinabi na hindi ka sasaktan, after mo magbigay ng tiwala, idi-disappoint ka

Dahil kapag sinabi na mahal ka, iniisip mo na mahal talaga, pero hindi talaga nun alam kung ano yung pagmamahal

Dahil kapag sinabi nya na mahalaga ka, mayroon at mayroon pang mas mahalaga sayo

Assuming ka kase.

"Naiinis ako dahil hindi na ako natuto. Nasaktan na ako dati. Pero hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit sa panahon na mapasaya ako pansamantala, nawawala sa isip ko na dapat ako dumistansya kasi ako at ako lang rin naman ang masasaktan sa huli."

Naayos na yun eh. Natapos na yun.

On the second day of September, they broke my heart. Before the day ends, I made a permanent decision. And at the third day of September, I become this new person that they knew. I changed. I become aloof to people and never wanted to become attached to anyone. I become this universal student who come and go with the different block groups even to the other programs. They broke me, maybe I am just afraid to get attached and get disappointed again and again. I hate what they done to me. I hate it when I recall the pain, how we used to be and how we are now. I don’t want any bestfriends for now. They’re just my close friends, but bestfriend is the other thing.

I want to hate them, but it was wrong. So I hate myself for feeling this way.

I always does, hate myself.

#writing #PastTime #stories

#writing #PastTime #stories

Colliding colors.
#Pastel #Owl #Unfinished

Colliding colors.
#Pastel #Owl #Unfinished

I need to talk to you. Before I post something again here. Can we just chill out and talk about things? Things that really matters. Quite serious, perhaps.